Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Storm signals up.
Stormy Tuesday is reflective of my state of mind today. Or one might be an effect of the other.
Was about to say that it's a case of chicken vs. egg, but who am i kidding to think that my mood could have an effect on the weather? The closest probability is that my perception of the severity of the weather has something to do with my mood. On an early Tuesday!
Friggin' umbrella broke on me today. I, myself, am so close to breaking too.
And the week has just started.
I could have been breezing the storm away because of several pseudo-achievements at work. Then again, pseudo-achievements have been slightly marred with the realization that i am still a few notches below completing everything in my plate this year - and it will be October in a few days. Barely a month to go before our next Board reporting.
On the other hand, maybe I should consider it a good sign that I have been this involved with work. A hundred-eighty degree turn from how I was last year. But hey, everything has been a hundred-eighty degrees different today compared to last year. I was fat and pregnant and did not care about anything else but my bulging tummy.
Now, I have my 9-month old Qube and loads of presentation materials to finish.
I soo envy those sleeping in today. Wet and stormy dreams to everyone.
Was about to say that it's a case of chicken vs. egg, but who am i kidding to think that my mood could have an effect on the weather? The closest probability is that my perception of the severity of the weather has something to do with my mood. On an early Tuesday!
Friggin' umbrella broke on me today. I, myself, am so close to breaking too.
And the week has just started.
I could have been breezing the storm away because of several pseudo-achievements at work. Then again, pseudo-achievements have been slightly marred with the realization that i am still a few notches below completing everything in my plate this year - and it will be October in a few days. Barely a month to go before our next Board reporting.
On the other hand, maybe I should consider it a good sign that I have been this involved with work. A hundred-eighty degree turn from how I was last year. But hey, everything has been a hundred-eighty degrees different today compared to last year. I was fat and pregnant and did not care about anything else but my bulging tummy.
Now, I have my 9-month old Qube and loads of presentation materials to finish.
I soo envy those sleeping in today. Wet and stormy dreams to everyone.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Missing.
Thirteen hours away from home, and i am already missing my little imp.

I promised the husband* that i won’t be writing any blog entries tonight.
But what the heck, this is my first night free of motherly responsibilities and wife duties, so i will celebrate it by….
…staying in my hotel room writing about how much I am already missing Qube I want to cry. Only that I’ve been told not to think of him a lot, else he won’t be able to sleep through the night. I hope he does.
I hope I’d be able to sleep too. I’ve already forgotten how it feels not to have Qube sleep beside me.
And for the husband*, I also will not pass the chance to tell the world about how, at 1:30 in the morning, you had me brought you to the ER because of pins and needles on you arm, heart burn, backache, nausea, headache, and what have yous – the night before my very first overnight trip away from home. Go figure.
Haaay, I miss you both.
I promised the husband* that i won’t be writing any blog entries tonight.
But what the heck, this is my first night free of motherly responsibilities and wife duties, so i will celebrate it by….
…staying in my hotel room writing about how much I am already missing Qube I want to cry. Only that I’ve been told not to think of him a lot, else he won’t be able to sleep through the night. I hope he does.
I hope I’d be able to sleep too. I’ve already forgotten how it feels not to have Qube sleep beside me.
And for the husband*, I also will not pass the chance to tell the world about how, at 1:30 in the morning, you had me brought you to the ER because of pins and needles on you arm, heart burn, backache, nausea, headache, and what have yous – the night before my very first overnight trip away from home. Go figure.
Haaay, I miss you both.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Eighth Highlights.
Technically, it's still during the eighth month.
Went home last Friday with a not-so-good mood and a giant
headache. I was greeted by a smiling Qube doing "The Close-Open".
Was i happy? I was ecstatic and the giant headache suddenly
vanished!
Before the eighth month ends, let me count the ways that
Qube made me smile on this particular month:
1. Close - Open: When we had just about given up on him learning to do it.
Starting on his 3nd month, we had been trying to teach him this, but he always seemed oblivious to my and his dad's efforts.
But last Friday, when I arrived and Yaya asked him to show me – he closed his fist tightly, then opened it to show his palm, then he did it two more times. There was no mistaking it; he was really doing The Close – Open!
The catch? He refuses to do it more than twice a day. Or twice to the same person. Stubborn little imp.
2. Dance, dance: Nobody taught him. Well, I am not sure if Yaya did, but since both I and his dad never learned how to dance properly, we simply did not include it in our agenda to teach Qube. Maybe his daily dose of Showtime is to blame.
1. Close - Open: When we had just about given up on him learning to do it.
Starting on his 3nd month, we had been trying to teach him this, but he always seemed oblivious to my and his dad's efforts.
But last Friday, when I arrived and Yaya asked him to show me – he closed his fist tightly, then opened it to show his palm, then he did it two more times. There was no mistaking it; he was really doing The Close – Open!
The catch? He refuses to do it more than twice a day. Or twice to the same person. Stubborn little imp.
2. Dance, dance: Nobody taught him. Well, I am not sure if Yaya did, but since both I and his dad never learned how to dance properly, we simply did not include it in our agenda to teach Qube. Maybe his daily dose of Showtime is to blame.
Now, his repertoire includes: Gotta Feeling by the Black Eyed Peas, Pokerface by Lady Gaga, On the Floor by J. Lo, The Time (Dirty Bit) by Black Eyed Peas, The Sweet Escape by Gwen Stefani and Akon, and a selection of nursery rhymes and bedtime songs.
Oh, and yes, he dances when he likes his food.
One of these days, I might just tie him on a leash. Promise.
But because I do not want to make false claims when I boast this to friends, and especially when I write about it, I modified my singing to use my normal voice. And he hummed in his normal voice. Still, not contented because it might have been just a coincidence, I again sang in falsetto voice. And yes, my Qube also began humming in falsetto.
Well, picture me smiling smugly to the husband*. The baby took after me, afterall.
There are many more little things that Qube does to make us
proud parents believe that he is the best eight-month old there is today. But of
course, all proud parents think this too.
This ends our amazing
– eight journey.
Welcome to nine months, Qube.
Location:
Makati City, Philippines
Friday, September 16, 2011
Thursday, I don't care about you...
And Friday,
I don't feel loved.
I don't feel loved.
Put simply,
this week is not my best week.
With a combination
of female hormones, frenzy at the workplace, lack of sleep, and chaos at home, what
should one expect?
Only new
mothers would understand. I think.
To cap off
this week, here are song fragments that have been playing on and off inside my
head to describe how I feel, because I am in no mood to use my own words:
Unwell – Matchbox 20
“I'm feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell”
Stomach Flu,
Hangover-like headache without the booze, bad dreams this week. Yes, I am
unwell.
The Scientist - Coldplay
“Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it
would be this hard
Oh let’s go back to
the start.”
Well, the newness of everything is still overwhelming, even
after nine months.
Better Days – Goo Goo Dolls
“And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we’ll find better
days
‘cause I don’t need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we’ll find better
days.”
I could go
on singing this song ‘til the end and all the lines are so apt!
Minamalas
– Mojofly
I like it now more than ever – from start to finish, and
especially this line:
“Minamalas, kase wala
na akong mahanap na iba…”
Repeat ten
times.
Imbecilesque – Rivermaya
“Good morning baby
Are you still mad at me?
I guess I couldn't blame you
I instigated this big mess
I acted imbecillesque
Yeah I know..”
Are you still mad at me?
I guess I couldn't blame you
I instigated this big mess
I acted imbecillesque
Yeah I know..”
Most times, it’s intentional. To make you feel as terrible
as I do.
It’s hard to say I do, when I don’t - Fall Out Boy
“I speak fast and I'm not gonna repeat
myself
So listen carefully to every word I say:
"I'm the only one who's gonna get away
with making excuses today,
You're appealing to emotions that I simply
do not have"
This should
not have been included hadn’t somebody popped “The Question” early this
morning. So, there.
Spend My Life – Eric Benet
“Can I just see you every morning when I
open my eyes
Can I just feel your heart beating beside me every night
Can we just feel this way together till the end of all time
Can I just spend my life with you”
Can I just feel your heart beating beside me every night
Can we just feel this way together till the end of all time
Can I just spend my life with you”
Of course. Despite
all the talk, this is still my song.
Little James – Oasis
“thank you for your smile
you make it all worthwhile
to us”
you make it all worthwhile
to us”
Just this
morning before leaving for work, I looked at my sleeping Qube and yes, you make it all worthwhile, my little James
Quasar Qyle.
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